sweet things done too often are just unappreciated.

something alex posted that i find damn true.

Message: : Guys hate sluts even though
they
have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if
you've slept with more than 6
guys..you're a HOE)

--Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

--Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You know
what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

--A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
we're all confused.

--When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

--Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

--Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.


**
damn, how true -alex
damn, how true- tim

what an emo blog. how i wish this blog could be a happy one. but reality prevails and begs to differ i guess. anyway i was reading thru gina's past entries. and i realised how much i hate her blog now. i remembered last time i used to look forward to reading her blog so much because there was always something about how much she missed me, and how much she loved me, which really touched my heart. now i still wanna read her blog, but not for these reasons anymore, but just to see how much she has changed and evolved. my dear, you have CHANGED TONS. yes i admit i have too, but at least i've learnt to treasure you more. i used to mean so much to you, and you'd let me know that. but now all i am is but a mere shard of glass embedded in your skin. and honestly, i dont like being that little shard of glass.

i just realised that im a person who needs tons of emotional support and stuff. i cannot survive with someone who just wants to go out with me and stuff, but not expressing how much she loves me and stuff like she did in the past, e.g blog. the last time i ACTUALLY enjoyed reading her blog was in June 2007. after she entered uni she's become some alien. dont ask me what kinda alien man i have no idea. i just think i've been dating someone different. i used to enjoy taking care of her so much. gave me a sense of achievement and also the thought that i must never ever let her go or she might just crumble. now she's just some woman totally independent of me. so now God, i ask you. what is my purpose now being with her? i honestly find no purpose. no purpose at all. she can take care of herself now. she can. she doesnt need me anymore. maybe she should just dump me and leave me alone.

damn im so tired. pestered by mosquitoes, pestered by random thoughts in my mind. yet im not going to let this get me down! i mean, come on man. since when has tim been put down but such things. i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. i have to get up on my feet man :D p.s. ade, yes i know i look cuter when i smile more :D hahahahahaha bhb. anyway the past few days have been and will continue to be hectic. doing orders for our missions, packing our kit bag for crescendo, and also managing our own lives. it's going to be especially crazy for me. but i guess i will be able to manage it. after crescendo, everything will be more smooth sailing. because we're going to book out like every three days! :) and even if something happens to me and her, i will move on in life. i know crescendo is going to be an especially worrying time for me, but i hope i can pull through it. i want to fulfil my mom's dreams of having another officer in the family after dad. hahaahha. for my mom i will pull through. :) i guess i'll just hug my penguin to sleep everyday, eh:) hhahahaah

i know you fell for another person once though you often denied it. and i'm willing to give you one chance. just one.

wow i never thought i would actually be blogging one day. i actually thought it would be stupid. but i realised its actually an avenue for me to channel my feelings and thoughts thru. and since noone knows about my blog except Gina, i guess i can pretty type out whatever i want in this blog. well i've been thinking a lot recently, and i feel that i just dont belong anywhere. i am just some lost peasant roaming around the streets of a crowded town. and i feel lonely. its a feeling i cannot help. i dont know if i belong within my friends, in my family, or even with her. its a feeling i cannot help after all the things i've been told and i guess reality does kick in. and when it does, it's gonna hurt. well. but i guess i have GOT to stand up on my own feet now. no more thinking for other people, other than my family. it's time i think for myself. i dont wanna break down. i dont wanna feel hurt anymore. like Gina used to say, "an emotional rollercoaster". yeah that's exactly what it is. i feel so helpless but i just cannot help it. but i am not going to remain like that. i will move on in life no matter what decisions are made. 

new year resolutions 2008

- get a good body by april 2008. (MUST)
- save lots of money so i can go overseas after comissioning no matter with who.
- build on the relationships i have fostered with my friends.
- always remaining happy and jolly no matter what happens
- be a great and loving son and brother to my family because they are the only ones who truly love me for who i am
- make new friends! :)

goodbye 2007, hello 2008. well honestly, i didnt feel anything at all whilst watching the countdown. because after all, it's just another day. and the new year doesnt take away problems. in fact, they get carried on to the next year and hopefully not to the year after. here's a flashback of my life.

jan 2007. basically had the time of my life with Gina, going to genting and having lots of fun. a really carefree time. didnt even bother to find work! march 2007. the time where i got my job at IFFS as some retarded interpreter for a taiwanese furniture company. well but at least i got paid about 200 bucks for three days! that's a good job man. april 2007 - enlistment. the beginning of a nightmare. however, i did meet many great people in BMT that i believe will do a good job thru NS and eventually ORD as rejuvenated men. june 2007 - OCS Bravo. well i didnt expect to get there. and i am still there. hopefully i can pull thru and comission as an officer to make myself and my family proud. as well as Gina's dad.

well life was pretty stagnant all the way up till nov - dec 2007. well this is for sure the most fucked up period of my life. where i almost made irreversible choices and which could cause a change in life. but at least it made me a changed man.

after all this said, i just hope that one fine day, i would find my true soulmate. the one who would cook for me after work which i would appreciate even if it were horrid, the one who would rub my back for me if im aching, the one who would appreciate all the stuff i have done for her, the one who would stay ever truthful and faithful to me. and lastly, the one who would never betray my feelings and cause much hurt and pain.

lord, please help me realise/find my true love. my heart feels dead. please someone help bring me back to life.

ahhhhhh... the beautiful island of portofino, off the eastern coast of italy, half my homeland. how i wish i could just get far away, from all the problems in life, from army, from reality. yet, sadly, this is not how life works. all of us have to go through the stuggles, the worry and of course the comtemplation of what is right and wrong. yet, sometimes i wonder why we have to go through all this. were we put on earth just to lead such miserable lives, to taste the blandness of defeat? i dont know. but i do know that we have to treasure what we have in life, instead of brooding over what we don't. if we do so, that will just make each day a torture to go through. having been through what i would call hell over this month, i guess i have changed for the better. if not for this challenge i have faced recently, i would still carry on with my old ways, being a horrid man and just causing more hurt and harm to the people i love. so people, to those reading this, remember. 

cherish what you have. and now, a tribute to the world's greatest mommy! :D:D

damn so true.

reflecting on the past, i remember my favourite song was "forever love", yet now i abhor it. why?
yet, now i love the song "empty". am i undergoing a process of change? or are you?

lord please help me. whats wrong with me?!

it is said that once penguins found a mate, they'd stick with that partner for the rest of their lives and most of the time, die together.

i guess we're not penguins after all.

your heart beats next to mine

hello all! welcome to my blog! haha well i've decided to start blogging, on a personal note, just for fun.

so anyway, i've been thinking a lot recently. 
why have so many couples been breaking up and throwing that love away?
i feel that, being in a relationship, no matter what, you MUST stay committed and always believe in your partner. never doubt the faith and trust that your partner has in you, or you might just shatter his/her heart.
okay enough of that. 
anyway today was a real hectic/slack day. i say that as we have been really rushing to pack all our stuff for JCC that's coming up soon. and being the dipshit i am, i forgot to read my email before booking in. so the majority of my stuff is STILL AT HOME. haha but dont blame me la. when im home im either pampering my darling with massages and making her Milo while she's studying, or sleeping.
OCCT today was full of shit. as usual, all of us wonder why the hell we are learning breakfalls. in the first place, if you slip on a banana peel(etc) and fall, you will not use stupid techniques. instead, you would just land on your ass. Guanzhen, being the cock that he is, started playing a fool and got us all laughing, though i was quite down this morning.

i realised that even in times of misery and depression, always remember that there are people out there that love you. your friends, your family, even your colleagues. every ounce of care and concern they show you can brighten your day.

to darling : baby i've finally written my first entry! i know you've been waiting for it. hahahaa anyway i just want to tell you that i love you and will NEVER let you go. understand?! NEVER. i hope we'll fulfil our dreams of getting married blablabla ( refer to our plan! ;) )so just study hard okay? and of course think of me always. i'll always be there for you :) to end off this entry with our song :

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
And I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say [Hey]

Nobody gonna love me better
Im must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
Im must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
Im must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
Im must stick with you

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me [one for me]
What I'm saying

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
Im must stick with you [nobody]
You know how to appreciate me
Im must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
Im must stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need [nothing else i can need]
And now


I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (Baby,I'm with you baby)
Baby, you're with me (Baby,You're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
and that's all that counts

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why i say ,hey


Nobody gonna love me better
Im must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
Im must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
Im must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
Im must stick with you

Nobody gonna love me better
Im must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
Im must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
Im must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
Im must stick with you